Obviously I have been struggling with money for a couple months now and its gotten to the point where its a little overwhelming. Ive never struggled with finances so I think thats why I find myself stressed out so much and having such a hard time dealing with it. It sucks that Ive taken things for granted for sooo long. Dan and I used to do whatever we wanted, buy whatever we wanted, ate whatever we wanted.. life was good. lol Seriously its like a reality check or something.. and it sucks! I guess Im a spoiled brat reacting this way but Im just tired of it. I understand that the bad times make you a stronger person and maybe this is a way for me to appreciate things in life. Right now Im at a point where I dont see the end of the tunnel but Im hoping that it will be clear as day soon. Dans in school for about a month longer.. I just have to make it until then. AND I will.
I feel fortunate to have a great place to live, a supportive loving husband, a strong relationship with God, and a great family and friends. Those things are priceless and invaluable to me and I know that I shouldnt take those for granted and I do not. I have always wanted to live a simple life. I never thought I was materialistic and now I realize that Im more than I thought. I hope from this experience that I grow as an individual and gain a lot from it. I want to continue to value experiences and people more than a fancy house, car, or lots of money. Im working on it, but its coming along. I want to raise children who find worth in experiences not how much stuff they have. I understand now that I have to live that way in order for me to teach my children how to live. If I think back to times when I was a child, it wasnt how many toys I had or the clothes I wore, it was the experiences I shared with my family and friends. :)
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths" (Proverbs 3:5,6)
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